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NAME: Nickolas Dylan Barrett
My Story
24 June 2010
As one who has embraced this work with all of my heart, I feel it is time to share my experience. I'm not sure what to say exactly but this is what I could come up with....
I was born into a middle class family, my dad was a brick mason and my mom a nurse. My dad was raised catholic but rejected it in his early teens. My mom was raised without religion or beliefs other than maybe atheism. I was raised with no beliefs other than perhaps that science would be humanitys' salvation. Even as a young boy growing up around staunch mormons (at school and play) I hated the idea of god, and the devil and I can remember having arguments at school (maybe starting in 1st grade) about how absurd the idea is of a monster with horns called the devil.. whos going to hurt you forever if you do something "bad." Or an old man with a beard looking down on us and making sure we wont go to heaven if we screw up..
It also became clear that most kids I was talking to were not DEEP THINKERS but seemed to just go along with their parents and peers, but had not really thought about these concepts themselves. Later on it would become clear that I was similar to them in that I accepted what my parents believed, although they themselves (my dad especially) had rejected the religion of his parents, so there was inherently more thought given to any subject of "truth."
I hated school and authority, (still do). I dropped out high.. (pun intended) i mean i dropped out of high school. I had discovered that I would have to find something to do in order to make money to support myself!!!! F*** that I thought. There has got to be something else!! A year or so before I dropped out I found that I was real good at music. So I started a band and that sort of led to my eventual dropping out of school, oh and copious weed use helped. I was pretty serious about music at the time and even recorded a demo cd of 5 songs, that my parents absolutely love. That was also why I was able to drop out and mess around with music, because my dad supported me doing the music. (my parents had gotten along not so well throughout my life and eventually divorced for good when I was 13 or so). Therefore I was left to myself in the house i grew up in with my mom living elsewhere nearby and my dad often staying with his girlfriend in park City.
Music soon turned into full time smoking weed and sitting around listening to music, sometimes playing. I just did not have the drive to get myself out there, I still thought I was the greatest at everything which gives you some idea of my mental state at the time. I needed to make money!!! But i didnt want to really work.... So i decided to SELL WEEEEED!!!!!! long story short I ended up smoking myself into oblivion because I was NOT HAPPY. I was into the "SECRET" thinking that I could positively think my way into fortune.. DOESNT WORK PEOPLE.... nor does buddhist make any sense to me cause i was into that for a very short time.
I ended up in a mental hospital with all sorts of strange delusions... some of which are very similar to the real truth, most other delusions I had WERE VAIN AND FOOLISH IMAGINATIONS... kinda like the ones we have all been raised with.. (and ones i still have cause i'm a weak, fleshly dorkus). Apparently the only time I could accept some kind of spiritual/religious thought was when I was clinically insane... ironic?
So there I am. fresh out of a few weeks being absolutely nuts in the Lds Mental ward. NO FRIENDS, NO MONEY, NO NOTHING. I end up staying with my mom to recover from my brain trauma. This being the most depressing time in my life.. To the point of Suicide seeming like a relief that it was an option. I began to search the internet for answers... aliens, conspiracies you name it. Blah blah blah... Did NOT MAKE ME HAPPY. My mom's boyfriend burke bluemel knew all about chris and had shown the 666 book to my mom.
For reference, I have never read the bible, book of moron or any other religious nonsense...
The 666 book was given to me and I must say that every word from the start spoke to the very "essence" of my being... I KNEW IT WAS TRUE!!!!! Oh hoy joyful I felt.. I haven't the power to describe. I had incredible dreams that did nothing but confirm what I was reading. It explained why this world is how it is.... SHITTY, BORING, and HOPELESS quite frankly.. But thankfully now I know its all for a very good reason!!!! THANK GOD!!!! I felt the same when I read the Sealed Portion as well despite having never read the book of mormon. I would recommend the book Human Reality for all you atheists types but really those other two books did it for me.. Not sure why, considering my anti religious background in this particular lifetime.
Its been more than two years ago now, since I first read the books... I've met christopher and I've heard him speak.. "I know he is the man, given to the world to remind us who we are.. Confounding all the lies, ripping the veil right from our eyes. Nurturing the weak, with the real truth that he speaks." thats a line from a nice song I wrote about the truth which is the only subject matter of my songs these days.. A truly endless source of inspiration. I cant stand the inequality of this world and wish I had the balls to kill myself and end this foolish charade. But I guess the more pain the better!!!
My peace inside is hard to believe, even for me... Just when it comes down to experiences that are "difficult" ya know dealing with girls, money, living situation, etc... None of that B.S. really does much to shake me anymore... OH MY GOD HOW IT USED TO!!!! I dont smoke weed, drink booze or anything else anymo'...... thanks to the Real Truth, I have a real 'rock' to hold onto when everything else (the world) is falling apart all around me.. I couldn't hope or ask for anything more.
Thanks reality.
If you don't like life and you don't understand why you are here... Read these books cause they answer your questions. end of story.
nickolas dylan barrett
[Christopher 6/25/2010 added the following]
The word "eclectic" well describes the people brought into this work before its official establishment (2012) who define what it is all about.
Defined by Websters as "selecting what appears to be best in various doctrines, methods, or styles; composed of elements drawn from various sources," the word properly describes the people who have embraced this work.
What Nick has revealed about himself stands as a witness to the power of this Marvelous Work and a Wonder® (MWAW). Each book was carefully considered for publication so that, if read with a sincere desire and real intent, each would reach its own particular audience.
Nick writes, "I would recommend the HUMAN REALITY book for all you atheist types." Indeed, this book was intended for those who have no belief in anything outside of their current reality. Yet, their current reality is full of religion, myth, and the excuses humans use to justify the way they treat each other. An atheist's reality is that God does exist, maybe not in their head, but in the heads of many people who have the power to affect their free will. Therefore, an atheist should be grateful that there now exists a book that explains things on their level sin religion and God.
Although non-religious himself, it was the explanation of a religious book that "opened" Nick's eyes to real truth. All of his life he was exposed to the fear-based rhetoric surrounding the book of Revelation. People fear "the mark of the beast, its number, its image, and its name." They fear "Armageddon" and the great "Apocalypse. " Nick probably scoffed at their fear, never understanding where it came from, and not really caring. Yet, what affected him the most was the way that those who did fear affected his free-willed choices. Nick now had to fear them! :-)
Once he got the true meaning behind the symbolism that caused these people to fear, Nick learned that he had nothing to fear EXCEPT them that fear!
He learned that the "beast," "Armageddon, " and "Apocalypse" had all to do with the free-willed choices of the people themselves, without any outside influence or control. With his new understanding, Nick wondered why these people feared themselves!
With the euphoria of finally understanding something of the fear of those who controlled him, Nick had a desire to know the person from whom the proper explanation was given that allowed him to understand. Was it another person to fear? How could he be afraid of a person who taught him how not to fear?
:-)
In short,
Our mutual creators do not want us to fear them or each other.
To help counter our individual fears and confound all the vain and foolish imaginations invented by humans that create fear, this work is directed by them for the sake of each individual.
Nick is one of the "eclectic" ones gathered to this work as a testimony that it does indeed work outside of religious belief systems. It speaks to the common sense we all share (or should share) in common.
All those who teach fear should fear this work. It will take away the fear that gives their religions, philosophies, opinions, and ideas their value.
They should all fear me and Nick. Why? Because we don't fear them!
:-)
Nick, your story is a welcome one and I encourage any others who wish to make theirs known, please do!
C. :-)
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